Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

Recently, my therapist told me I have cPTSD and am in the midst of a trauma response/flare-up/activation, which was very validating and helpful to hear.

I have some good days where I feel completely fine, but at the smallest stressor or irritation, I completely spiral into an overwhelmingly anxious mess. I would describe myself as the most irrational rational person I know. I can think very logically and come up with a rational explanation to talk back to nearly all of my anxiety thoughts, but I cannot actually bring myself to believe them and I just continue to feel like I'm drowning until I go to sleep. Rinse and repeat.

I decided to increase my biweekly therapy sessions to weekly, start biweekly somatic therapy, and I have family therapy lined up (for a lot of reasons, low contact will never be an option for me, even though I honestly prefer it deep down).

I am very intimidated by the cost as my insurance makes me pay out of pocket until I hit my high deductible. I am trying to pick up an extra part-time job or two on top of my full-time job to reduce the financial blow even a little.

I'm trying to tell myself that this is a temporary high-cost investment, which will save me a lot of time, uncontrolled pain, and money in the long run.

Fingers crossed.

Recently, my therapist told me I have cPTSD and am in the midst of a trauma response/flare-up/activation, which was very validating and helpful to hear.

I have some good days where I feel completely fine, but at the smallest stressor or irritation, I completely spiral into an overwhelmingly anxious mess. I would describe myself as the most irrational rational person I know. I can think very logically and come up with a rational explanation to talk back to nearly all of my anxiety thoughts, but I cannot actually bring myself to believe them and I just continue to feel like I'm drowning until I go to sleep. Rinse and repeat.

I decided to increase my biweekly therapy sessions to weekly, start biweekly somatic therapy, and I have family therapy lined up (for a lot of reasons, low contact will never be an option for me, even though I honestly prefer it deep down).

I am very intimidated by the cost as my insurance makes me pay out of pocket until I hit my high deductible. I am trying to pick up an extra part-time job or two on top of my full-time job to reduce the financial blow even a little.

I'm trying to tell myself that this is a temporary high-cost investment, which will save me a lot of time, uncontrolled pain, and money in the long run.

Fingers crossed.

Hello, I'm seeking your support.

I was recently laid off from a job that I truly enjoyed. Over the past 10 years, I have grappled with depression and anxiety, and I have been taking medication for the past 4 years.

Losing my job has significantly exacerbated my feelings of depression and anxiety, to the point where most days, I struggle to get out of bed. I find myself spending the whole day eating, watching Netflix, and mindlessly scrolling through social media.

My job was a beacon of hope for me, especially after it took me 3 years to find a job following a 7-year tenure at my previous workplace. Now, I feel hopeless about finding another job. I am so drained and disheartened that I can't even muster the energy to work on my resume and start applying again. I keep asking myself, "What's the point?"

Especially considering that I'm a 38-year-old single woman, the thought of failing at everything and never achieving anything in life keeps taunting me. How can I start over at this age with nothing to build on?

In any case, I was hoping that you could provide me with some ideas and recommendations for sustainable morning and nighttime routines that could assist me during this challenging period.

Thank you very much 🤍

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